| Ever since the invasion of myspace, I seem to have totally forgotten
about this thing. I don't actually think anyone actually reads
xanga anymore. Seems like a lot has happend since I last wrote in
this thing. To make a long story short... everyone's happy...
than everything falls apart. I dunno what to think and do
anymore. Always one side of my life is teetering on the brink if
non existence. Balance is too hard to do these days.
Recently I've just been noticing my friends around me just crumble
under the pressure of loneliness. I don't understand the pressure
for sex, love, and relationships being such a burden on our
lives. Sure they are suppose to be great things, but the absence
of them has the most adverse side effects. It's a bitch... I
would know. Makes you do stupid things like write emo blogs at
3:30 in the morning. Nevertheless, I have vast amounts of time on
my hands till I land my first job. Everyday is beginning to feel
like a hurdle. Honestly, graduating from college was extremely
depressing for me. It's like i'm suppose to have some sort of
epiphany when I was done, but it's just more responsibility on my
shoulders. The years in my difficult major was like a struggle
for survival. I feel like i've given away so many freedoms to
become successful in school. Sure I've learned programming and
how to make the next Napster, but it feels like i've given up so much
more. I believe social interaction is a large part of life and I
chose to walk a path totally devoid of it. My parents always
wanted me to do things on my own... or more like alone. And I
pretty much did as they wanted. I really don't consider my family
a real family. I'm thankful for their financial support they give
me, but that's all they provide me with. It's a family set on
ideals that I should achieve because it is my role. And everyone else
in my 3 person family fills their roles. Just like puppets
lacking real souls and emotions. We're more like a machine to
serve a purpose than to really live life. I know some believe
that having my oppurtinity to go through college through parental
funding is a blessing, but i'm really not sure yet if the costs
outweigh the benefits. Last time I tried talking to my mother
about my ending relationship and she just told me "Just don't be sad
too long" like it would hinder my studies. My emotional
well-being is not of importance I can tell, because in my family... it
doesn't exist. As I see some spiraling downward, I try to save
face and weather the storm, and when I'm really alone... I talk to
electronic journals.
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| This is a computer programming class.
In four sentences, who is the most influential peron in programming from 1800-1995?
This is my answer:
Ada Lovelace is the most influential person in programming because she
is a woman. She broke the barrier of male dominated
geekdom. Without her they may not be sexy females in video
games. She showed that there can be female presence in computing
and without her we may have never had Tomb Raider.
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x-tra credit was
Write a poem about your favorite sys calls.
Here's to name a few:
* fork
* execve
* wait
* waitpid
* dup
* dup2
* pipe
* open
* close
* chdir
* getcwd
* access
This was my poem...
So there's this girl I really wanna fork()
And I took her on a date.
She thought I was such a dork.
Now all I can do is wait()
I was a dup() to think her legs would open()
I was really starting to stress.
I was beginning to think my pipe() was broken
Till she finally let me have access().
I'm gonna fail... -_- |
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| Hurrah 2 days late period and only 5% a day! Grah more hw!
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